My Wonderful Doctor I feel sorry for my doctor because there isn't anything more that she can do for me. We have now tried all the medications available and we are trying one more. I hope that she will know that I appreciate everything she had done for me once I'm gone. I hope I can find a way to letter know in my letter to her. All Pain, No Gain There is plenty of pain, but I'm not seeing the up side. There must be an upside to this pain and I'm talking something other than making me a stronger person. If it doesn't kill you it makes you stronger... well this damn pain is going to kill. Where is the gain in that?