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No More Joy


After the first six months of chronic pain, I started to lose the joy. Any and all joy slipped out of my life.


Music stopped being fun and started annoying me. I couldn't listen to the radio on the drive to work in the morning. I now drive in silence. Cold boring miserable silence.

TV, walking, eating, being with people all stopped being enjoyable.

The joy was replaced by deep misery. No more jokes, no more fun. Nothing but dark thoughts and dark solutions to my problem.

The end must be near. I can't take the pain anymore, so solutions are needed. I'm working on a few solutions and I'll go into more details soon enough.
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